Don't tell me how to believe I know it takes a little time And all I'm doing is trying to get by But it's killing me just to try Feel like I am wasting my life And I don't wanna give up What if I'm not strong enough Don't wanna be what I'm not But I'm giving all I got Cali how was I supposed to know If this is really it why do I feel like letting go Cali I thought I knew I was gonna be I was ready to show them all Why do I feel like I'm not me Why do I feel like I'm not me But I knew every word Man I had it all down There was nothing I forgot to say How did it all turn around And why did nothing go my own way Cali how was I supposed to know If this is really it why do I feel like letting go Cali I thought I knew I was gonna be I was ready to show them all Why do I feel like I'm not me Why do I feel like I'm not me And you were some kind of a dream Was it all a fantasy was it really meant to be And they all said this was the real deal Now how am I supposed to feel Cali how was I supposed to know If this is really it why do I feel like letting go Cali I thought I knew I was gonna be I was ready to show them all Why do I feel like I'm not me Why do I feel like I'm not me California