When I drive past a graveyard I still hold my breath I guess on some level the thought of what's next Makes my stomach hurt When I get like that I don't know where to go with it So I just say something inappropriate Like must be nice to skip work If I act like I don't care it's 'cause I care too much If I act like I'm not scared it's 'cause I'm scared as fuck If I make a joke that you don't think is funny About how you'll get all of my money after I die It's 'cause if I don't laugh, I'll cry When I kiss you goodbye at the airport And I say a plane crash is cheaper than divorce I can't help it. No. I can't help it Wish I could stop all these cyclical thoughts Like one day you're here and the next day you're not I know without you would kill me if I ever felt it If I act like I don't care it's 'cause I care too much If I act like I'm not scared it's 'cause I'm scared as fuck If I make a joke that you don't think is funny About how you'll get all of my money after I die It's 'cause if I don't laugh, I'll cry When I drive past a graveyard I still hold my breath I guess on some level the thought of what's next Makes my stomach hurt