I don't know how it ends now I'm older But I hope it makes sense when it's over No I never thought I'd live, make it out like that You were everything I had once Said I'd leave it all behind and I'd never look back You were everything I had once It was days like this where I felt most alone Where my head got sick from the light on my phone Tryna tell myself that it wasn't my fault And it wasn't my fault Tryna run so far that you hide from yourself Let your brain play tricks til you figure it out It was days like this, I'd be down for a while Ain't been down for a while Yeah I used to look up and I hate it But the rain, I look up and I miss it Hope my family knows I never meant to leave them Think about it every time I write my feelings Tell myself that everything is for a reason Is it really thought or is it how I see it? It was days like this where I felt most alone Where my head got sick from the light on my phone Tryna tell myself that it wasn't my fault (It's not your fault) And it wasn't my fault Tryna run so far that you hide from yourself Let your brain play tricks til you figure it out It was days like this, I'd be down for a while (fuck em) Ain't been down for a while