It's been 10 years of investment It's been one foot in and one out It's been 4 days of full of shit and I feel snuffed out It's been 33 years of restraining Of trying to control this tumult How I did invest in such fantasy But my nervous system has worn out I feel done, I feel raked over coals and all that remains is the case That it's a bitch to grow up I've repeated this dance at nauseum There's still something to learn that I've not I'm told to see this as divine perfection But my bones don't feel this perfection I feel done, I feel raked over coals and all that remains is the case That it's a bitch to grow up I've spent life hovering above bottom Thinking I can't survive what's below But I've known through the kicking and screaming That there was no other direction to go I feel done, I feel raked over coals and all that remains is the case That it's a bitch to grow up.