why can't i see to step away i forced myself to live this way tortured by the druges i take pushed to the edge again can't seem to reach a point where i'm comfortable awake but asleep my mind is unreasonable feeling so weak i become to insecure i hate what i see i want this life no more need to believe that substance isn't a cure i'm feeling the need to change this life i hold i'm looking to see but loife is too unpredictable stuck in my ways i'm trapped inside this hole its how i feel what is real what is this?