I Love You I Hate You

歌詞

I love you, I hate you I love you, I hate you I love you So much, I would give my life for this (I hate you) If the bullet was the beat I would probably die for this (I love you) How many times did I cry for this? (I hate you) I would hate myself if I didn't at least try for this (I love you) What's at stake is bigger than me Blood, tears, how it stains can't rid it with ease (I hate you) What we have in common is our pain (I love you), we're given the keys To unlock what it takes to fight for what we believe in (I hate you) Hard to confront the truth of what you see in the mirror (I love you) Some people you inspire and others you trigger (I hate you) Fightin' in blind faith, led by the internal voice (I hate you) You might not wanna do it but you don't have a choice (I hate you) Will the pressure take me to new heights or be my demise? (I hate you) Will my intentions coincide with what I advise? (I hate you) The people lookin' up to me, doin' everything right (I hate you) But who am I to tell anyone how to live their life? (I hate you) Your pain threshold will determine if you survive I'm amazed by it Lyin' to myself, pretending I was never phased by it Maybe 'cause you're in my DNA that's why I love you, I hate you I love you Sometimes, I hate you Always, I love you But right now, I hate you I love you, I hate you You made a promise to God to be there for your kids (I love you) You made a promise to give them a life you didn't live (I hate you) My ego won't fully allow me to say that I miss you (I love you) A woman who hasn't confronted all her daddy issues (I hate you) The day would come when you gotta find all the answers to your sins (I love you, I hate you) Pressures of providin', feeling unhappy within (I love you) Or what kind of external family shit up on your plate (I hate you) But I understand wantin' and needin' an escape (I love you) Too much unsaid now the silence givin' me headaches (I hate you) Only through speech can we let go of all this dead weight (I love you) Even though I'm angry, don't wanna be disrespectful (I hate you) Tryna figure out how to approach this in the best way (I love you) Hard to not carry these feelings even on my best days (I hate you) Never thought my parent would give me my first heartbreak (I love you) Anxiety givin' me irregular heart rate (I hate you) Used to avoid getting into how I really feel about this (I love you) Now I see how fickle life can be and so it can't wait (I hate you) Shoulda been the person there to hold me on my dark days (I love you) It's easier to stargaze (I hate you) And wish than be faced with this reality Is you a sperm donor or a dad to me? And still (Make love tonight) I love you, I hate you I love you, I hate you Always, I love you But right now, I hate you Always, I love you I hate you On this mission, you live and learn (I love you) The world will show you no mercy from birth (I hate you) How do you humanize your hero? (I love you) Round here you're only respected if earned (I hate you) Half-hearted sorry's can't let your guard down (I love you) To get to nirvana where do you start out? (I hate you) Angry 'cause they don't meet your unrealistic standards (I love you) Then you realize that they're human and you calm down (I hate you) Sometimes I'm unbalanced and I think, "Rah, why am I losing my steps?" Lately, I'm paranoid, I feel my life is a mess I'm just usin' my voice, hope it will have an effect He was just once a boy, often I seem to forget Lookin' at Polaroids of pictures secretly kept You know what was destroyed but you don't know what was left Tryna phase out the noise, of who you hear in your head Everything is a choice and anything can be said Is you missin' the point, are you just hearin' me vent? Or is you in understandin', knowin' my words will connect? I keep you in my prayers 'cause life is short as we know Every mistake you make should contribute to your growth What you choose to avoid will probably come in your dreams I'm not forgivin' for you, man, I'm forgivin' for me And sometimes I hate you Sometimes I love you, sometimes I hate you Always, I love you, I hate you I love you, I hate you