The less time with a pen The more grammatical mistakes I made But I tried my best Tried to write my emotion on a backing sheet Maybe I wake up in a hospital bed I wanna feel safe You may think I'm going mad Feel like my desire has gone far away But I'm stuck in lonely night I'm still missing It was kinda a miracle I threw away something Could fill my heart I'm still tripping But I know this is what I've wanted I've found that every word you'd ever said to me were true Said you want me to stay But I walked away Said you want me to stay I won't do it again Too long on my phone All I want is feeling alive Outside Stop telling me how it's gonna be I'm so sick of it