I'm sick of losin' family everytime I blink my eyes And at the rate that it's goin' feel like I need to stay inside 'Cause I don't wanna be the next nigga to fall in a coffin Lord knows everybody that I love die often Or wind up in the cage & I don't seem to understand It ain't nothin' but a few of us left, I can count on my hand If I tried to make a song for everyone that I lost I'd probably have a triple CD in my deck when I floss And that's a damn shame, people entertained by pain I think I'm only sellin' records 'cause I'm goin' through it mayne I received a phone call from my old man today He was goin' crazy 'cause his older sister passed away And in my mind I think she lookin' down smilin' away But still it hurt, I'm writin' this & it ain't even been a day At least I got to give her a kiss & told her I love her Hey Christina, promise it'll never be another damn I'm a keep thuggin' 'Til The Day I Drop 'Cause it feel like I'm losin' everything I got On my knees askin' God, is it ever gon' stop? But he don't answer me back, I hope he help me out I'm a keep thuggin' 'Til The Day I Drop 'Cause it feel like I'm losin' everything I got On my knees askin' God, is it ever gon' stop? But he don't answer me back, I hope he help me out To tell the truth I'm never bein' happy nowadays In my everyday livin' will make a nigga wanna blaze I don't smoke, so I'm runnin' reality head on All the pressure & pain, comin' to me is dead wrong Only time I get to smile is when I see my lil' boy If he only knew I'm ridin' down for my boy I ain't got too many friends so I'm ridin' by myself Your own kin'll try to do you when on a mission for wealth I was told every person get a day of they own I guess they skipped over mine, I been in line for too long Why they won't leave me alone? I just wanna have a life I'm sick of livin' in the dark, trippin' searchin' for the light I'm a soldier so I fight 'til I'm runnin' out of breath And I ain't runnin' from the devil, it's war until the death Dear Lord help me out, I think you missin' all my calls My back against the wall & I ain't got no time to fall at all I'm a keep thuggin' 'Til The Day I Drop 'Cause it feel like I'm losin' everything I got On my knees askin' God, is it ever gon' stop? But he don't answer me back, I hope he help me out I'm a keep thuggin' 'Til The Day I Drop 'Cause it feel like I'm losin' everything I got On my knees askin' God, is it ever gon' stop? But he don't answer me back, I hope he help me out It ain't no more tellin' me that it's gonna be okay I watched the judge try to throw my roll dog life away It's safe to say any day I'm a be checkin' in With everything that I'm facin' they gotta let me in I only rap about the struggle 'cause it's all that I know I'm assumin' people hate me 'cause it's all that they show I never asked to be a rapper, I was stuck with it And fuck this shit 'cause I don't feel I'm havin' luck with it And it seem like I'm really trippin' sometimes And all I really want is the Lord to show me a sign 'Cause everything been rough when it's comin' to me & mine Since it's raining everyday I'll be prayin' the sun'll shine But it don't & on the real I don't feel that it will I'm the last one left until I end up gettin' killed I wanna turn away but still I know that it's real And deep inside I pray that the Lord'll be my shield, my pain is for real I'm a keep thuggin' 'Til The Day I Drop 'Cause it feel like I'm losin' everything I got On my knees askin' God, is it ever gon' stop? But he don't answer me back, I hope he help me out I'm a keep thuggin' 'Til The Day I Drop 'Cause it feel like I'm losin' everything I got On my knees askin' God, is it ever gon' stop? But he don't answer me back, I hope he help me out I'm a keep thuggin' 'Til The Day I Drop 'Cause it feel like I'm losin' everything I got On my knees askin' God, is it ever gon' stop? But he don't answer me back, I hope he help me out I'm a keep thuggin' 'Til The Day I Drop 'Cause it feel like I'm losin' everything I got On my knees askin' God, is it ever gon' stop? But he don't answer me back, I hope he help me out